Hi!
The code embedded on this website has noticed you have mentioned suicide. While I believe everyone should be ok to express emotions without judgement, suicide is never the option.
If you are struggling with mental health please call one of the numbers below.
Samaritans -
116 123 National Suicide Helpline UK -
0800 689 5652Website with phone numbers in most countries -
https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines